differentials

How can I tell you I love you
if I can’t trust you
if I can’t fight for you
Cowardly so.

How can I tell you I love you purely
when I wish your happiness
only because it makes me happy
Selfishly so.

How can I tell you I miss you
when I want to run away
when I fear you can’t be faithful
Hurting so.

How can I give myself to you
knowing you are so fragile
and silence, your weapon kills me
Fearing so.

For you,
I dreamed to be brave
I wished to be selfless
I wanted to be strong and whole.

But you,
you just scared me away.

forgive me…
for I have no right to tell you
that I miss you
and I love you
and I will be here for you
even if I’m just dying to do so.